Gray Divorce

Gray Divorce

I never wanted this ending, 

but here I stand, 

fractured and worn,

the weight of years slipping through my fingers,

uninvited, 

unanticipated.  

Regret clings to my skin 

like a shadow,

for the love 

I thought would last forever,

for the dreams 

we built and now dismantle,

for the silence 

that grew between us.  

Anger bubbles 

beneath my calm surface,

a fire I try to suppress,

because 

I never chose to part this way,

but life had other plans 

for us.  

I am haunted 

by what we lost,

by the memories 

that now feel distant,

by the laughter 

turned to echoes in empty rooms.  

Every decision 

feels like a betrayal,

every word, 

a reminder of what’s gone wrong,

and I wonder 

if I could have done more,

if I could have fought harder, 

stayed longer.  

This ending 

feels like a failure 

I can’t undo,

a chapter closed 

before I was ready,

leaving behind 

questions that have no answer.  

I am angry 

at the cruel passage of time,

at the years 

that slipped away unnoticed,

at the life we built 

that crumbled so quietly.  

There is a bitter taste in my mouth,

a longing for what once was,

a grief that refuses to fade.  

In the quiet, 

I hear the echoes of our past,

reminding me 

of love lost 

to circumstance,

and I grapple 

with the ache of loneliness.  

I never wanted 

to start anew 

at this age,

to rebuild 

from the ruins 

of what once was ours,

but here I am, 

navigating a future I never envisioned.  

The scars 

of this gray divorce run deep,

etched into my soul, 

into my bones,

telling me I am still alive, 

still fighting.

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©2025 Christopher Reilley 

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